Well. I'm not progressing. I may even be back-tracking.
Yes - I'm definitely back-tracking.
I've allowed a little meat to find it's way back into my diet from time to time. I can blame it on hockey season and the lack of vegan food to eat at and around Jobing.com Arena. I can blame it on the fact that I drank this weekend and my inhibitions were lowered. But I know that's not really the case. Alcohol doesn't have the same effect on me as it does on most other people. For all my issues with food - I have an amazing ability to know when "enough is enough" with alcohol.
So today I started over. I wonder how many times I will have to start over until it "sticks". Maybe every single solitary day... When does it start to get easier? Why has none of this been my "wake up call"?
Well - I do know one thing. I need to accept myself for who I am right now. I can't keep waiting until I get skinny for my life to start. I've been doing that my whole life - and it has gotten me nowhere. It's time to start living and stop waiting.
I found this picture and the words that follow via a Facebook friend. I think it bares repeating...
A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman.
The caption said: “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”
A woman (of clothing size unknown) answered that question the following way:
“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns.
They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds.
They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defends and admires.
Mermaids do not exist.
But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?
Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.
At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.
We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated. Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: ‘How amazing am I?!"
I'd also like to share with you an iPhone app I ran across lately. I love it - and when I'm feeling down I pull it up on my phone and read some of the affirmations it contains to help life my spirits.
The Body Beautiful™ Pledge:
-To love, honor and respect my body.
-To be a positive body-image role model for other girls and women.
-To give my body the care it needs with proper nutrition, rest and exercise.
-To stop comparing myself to others and critiquing other girls’ or women’s appearance.
-To say no to “fat talk” and speak truth into negative conversations about body and image.
-To abstain from measuring my beauty against the unrealistic images presented in the media.
-To live an outward-focused life so I can better love and serve the people around me.
Yes - I'm definitely back-tracking.
I've allowed a little meat to find it's way back into my diet from time to time. I can blame it on hockey season and the lack of vegan food to eat at and around Jobing.com Arena. I can blame it on the fact that I drank this weekend and my inhibitions were lowered. But I know that's not really the case. Alcohol doesn't have the same effect on me as it does on most other people. For all my issues with food - I have an amazing ability to know when "enough is enough" with alcohol.
So today I started over. I wonder how many times I will have to start over until it "sticks". Maybe every single solitary day... When does it start to get easier? Why has none of this been my "wake up call"?
Well - I do know one thing. I need to accept myself for who I am right now. I can't keep waiting until I get skinny for my life to start. I've been doing that my whole life - and it has gotten me nowhere. It's time to start living and stop waiting.
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A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman.
The caption said: “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”
A woman (of clothing size unknown) answered that question the following way:
“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns.
They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds.
They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defends and admires.
Mermaids do not exist.
But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?
Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.
At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.
We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated. Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: ‘How amazing am I?!"
I'd also like to share with you an iPhone app I ran across lately. I love it - and when I'm feeling down I pull it up on my phone and read some of the affirmations it contains to help life my spirits.
It is called the Body Beautiful App - and I took the pledge.
Will you?
-To love, honor and respect my body.
-To be a positive body-image role model for other girls and women.
-To give my body the care it needs with proper nutrition, rest and exercise.
-To stop comparing myself to others and critiquing other girls’ or women’s appearance.
-To say no to “fat talk” and speak truth into negative conversations about body and image.
-To abstain from measuring my beauty against the unrealistic images presented in the media.
-To live an outward-focused life so I can better love and serve the people around me.
