"The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.
Fear of the unknown is our greatest fear.
Many of us would enter a tiger's lair before we would enter a dark cave.
While caution is a useful instinct, we lose many opportunities and much of the adventure of life if we fail to support the curious explorer within us."
- Joseph Campbell
Today's weight: 341.0
My starting weight was 348 - so I'm slowly creeping back up toward it. I don't quite understand. At one point I'd lost 30 pounds. Perhaps I am afraid - afraid because fat is all I know. It's much easier to sit in a safe place that you know, that you've been accustomed to your entire life - than to do something that is hard and that will likely completely change the world as you know it - and it will change you as you know yourself.
I said I wanted that change, and I think deep down that I do. But it will mean so many, many changes in my world and right now it's a daunting task. It's weighing me down more than all this extra weight I'm carrying around.
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I love that you are blogging about this and being so open and honest about the process. It is exactly like this...a roller coaster. Hang in there...and thanks for following my blog. Perhaps I'll see you at a GF favorite spot!
ReplyDeleteHang in there, Heather. There will be bad days and there will be other days that will have you soaring. Remember those good ones, and keep that as motivation. I believe in you!
ReplyDeleteI thought I was the only one who felt like that about lifestyle changes. I get so far and then slowly over time I have yo yoed back up so often I lost count and the hard work starts all over. I think its the fear of not knowing what life could be without the extra weight. I found the easiest way to lose weight without even realising is to do little things for example walk a little further to a bus and swap snacks for dried fruits.
ReplyDeleteI hope you hang in there and reach whatever goals you have.
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Well good luck on your journey....as I read this post I wondered about myself if I am afraid to lose this weight, if I am hiding behind it too. Thanks for being honest!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for being so honest...it is nice to know that my mind isnt the only one that plays these little tricks on me! Keep going, you can do it!!
ReplyDeleteThank you ALL for your comments of encouragement - they mean more to me than I could ever fully express! <3
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up too much. Making life changes is hard. You're going to have days where you get it all wrong and go backwards. The point it to never give up. You can do this! Thanks for joining Weight Loss Wednesday. It was great meeting you!
ReplyDeleteHeather my dear,
ReplyDeletefor a great book that includes some thoughts on hiding behind the weight, check out "eating in the light of the moon" by Anita Johnston.
your post reminds me of this quote: 'just when the caterpillar thought the world was ending, he became a butterfly.'
I totally get what you are saying. I can literally feel my mind holding me back. I am not sure what it is. What am I so afraid of? I have lost weight many times before, and I know how great it can feel when I feel good about myself, but something has been holding me back this time. We just have to push through and push back the negative thoughts. Thanks again for being my first follower. I hope you know who this is.
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