"The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.
Fear of the unknown is our greatest fear.
Many of us would enter a tiger's lair before we would enter a dark cave.
While caution is a useful instinct, we lose many opportunities and much of the adventure of life if we fail to support the curious explorer within us."
- Joseph Campbell
Today's weight: 341.0
My starting weight was 348 - so I'm slowly creeping back up toward it. I don't quite understand. At one point I'd lost 30 pounds. Perhaps I am afraid - afraid because fat is all I know. It's much easier to sit in a safe place that you know, that you've been accustomed to your entire life - than to do something that is hard and that will likely completely change the world as you know it - and it will change you as you know yourself.
I said I wanted that change, and I think deep down that I do. But it will mean so many, many changes in my world and right now it's a daunting task. It's weighing me down more than all this extra weight I'm carrying around.